Rain

Truth be told I hate rain

I hate looking outside for days

Seeing nothing but rain

It brings memories of pain

And as the rain falls down

So does my tears on this page

I've cried for days

Just like the rain

There's times I've embraced the rain

Walked outside and claimed the rain

As my own

I do not like rain

But these past few days

Have been filled with nothing but rain

Rain filling my head for days

With memories of pain

The pain I felt when I first wrote

The time it took to send that note

That memo to people of who I really am

I've struggled with thoughts

Thoughts that flash in my mind as lighting

And thunder louder then I can bear

I swear

I hate rain

I've walked for days

Despite the rain

Trying to understand the connection

Why I can't truly show affection

To those I love

But I can give a hug

I can seem nice

The warmth of that hug

But my heart still frozen like ice

Snow King

I love the snow

I love the show

Of snowmen

Greeting snow angels

In the middle of a child's snowball fight

I love the mixture of the cold

And the heat from my raidiator at night

It's just sooo right

Memory

I remember a time not long ago

I walked in the rain

I walked in the snow

To a place unknown

I had to clear my head

Remove the skeletons from my bed

And back into my closet

I stuck hands in my pockets

And walked

Walked and talked to myself

Searching the starry sky

Trying to get help

The rain fell down

It washed me away

I fell on my knees

I began to pray

What can I say?

I don't even have a question

But I want answers

Got up and walked

The storm brews bigger

And just like that trigger

It's ready to fire

My heart desires to embrace this fire

Use it and let it fuel me before it consumes me

But I walk in the snow

Struggle to keep moving

Because it is 20 below

And I can't feel my toes

I continue

Because what I've been through

Is enough to keep going

Rain Rain

Go away

Come again another day

Screams kids all around

I wear no crown

Yet command you never return

Because you rain

You continue to burn me

Burn thoughts back into my mind

I thought I left behind

And you washed away

But now the clouds are grey

And you have brought them back

Thunder and Lightining

They overwhelm my mind

Let these thoughts unwind

Take hold
Be thankful

That it's temporary

That's what scares me

My momentary

Moments of undesired thoughts

That the rain washes me down with

Not washes them out with

I hate the rain